This conversation delves into the profound journey of recovery from addiction, exploring the intricate connections between childhood trauma, neurodivergence, and substance use. The speaker shares personal experiences of fear, self-discovery, and the impact of early life experiences on mental health. Through candid reflections, the discussion highlights the importance of understanding trauma, the role of inner child work, and the challenges faced during teenage years, including substance experimentation and the emotional turmoil that ensues. The conversation ultimately emphasises the need for healing and the complexities of navigating one's past to foster a healthier future. We discuss the tumultuous journey of a woman who transitioned from running pubs at a young age to navigating the complexities of drug dealing, relationships, motherhood, and ultimately, recovery from addiction. It highlights the normalisation of chaos in her life, the struggles of leaving a dangerous lifestyle, and the challenges of rebuilding after hitting rock bottom. Through candid reflections, she shares her experiences of personal growth, the impact of addiction on her family, and her path to finding hope and healing. We explore themes of self-discovery, trauma, and healing. The speaker shares personal experiences of hitting rock bottom, the transformative power of therapy, and the importance of community support. Through somatic practices and alternative healing methods, the discussion talks of the significance of understanding one's body and emotions in the recovery process. The conversation concludes with a message of empowerment, encouraging individuals to rewrite their stories and embrace healing.